So I decided to blog about my little whiney pants bitch.
I hate that I can't exercise the way I want to exercise.
I have a wonderful 4 yr old little boy whom I love.
My husband works 9-6(gets home at 7) so that he can drop our kid off at school
I work 5:30-2 so that I can pick him up. I then usually go to sleep by 8 or 9 so that I can get back up at 3:45 to go to work. We just started doing this in September to save money on paying for before or after care(saves $200-$300 a month). The thing is I love to run and bike. Before kids I took 2 spin classes a day one in the morning before work and one in the evening or else running. I loved it! Shit, I ran a 1/2 marathon in 2005. I have not found a way to workout without involving my son. I do have an eliptical and I should use it. I just don't like the eliptical it bores me. I play with him outside, we go for walks but it never gets my heartrate up there.
I could take him to the gym and put him in daycare but I am cheap...I just don't want to spend the money($4 for an hour) and I feel guilty not spending time with him.
I think I need to get over the guilt and pay the money to go to the gym. I say this because I really do love working out as long as it is something I like to do. Right now the walking is good and I don't need to make a decision but its weighing on my mind because I know that I am going to have to kick it in gear in about a month.
Why can't I spend the money to put him in daycare without feeling guilty? Why can't I put him in daycare for 1 hour a night without feeling guilty? Why?