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Saturday, December 31, 2011

Taking time for myself

Why is it so hard to take time for myself?  I am really good at making time for my husband and my son and making sure they are happy but I rarely have any left over for myself.  Its like I plan and budget for them and "if" there is anything left over its for me...but that is the problem there is none left for me and I tend to go by the wayside. 
Well 2012 is going to be my year.  It was a big step signing up for the weight loss surgery because even though my insurance pays 90% we still have to budget 10% which I am not sure how much it is going to be but I have budgeted $3000, its the first time since I have been married that I have set aside that much money for something I, alone am going to do for myself.  I am also going to have to set some expectations that mom is going to have to work out and not be able to do things for people during that time.  This is going to be hard for me.  I have been trying to get in exercise but so far its just been walking so that I can take my 4 year old.  I do realize that in order for me to start jogging that is going to require me to do it in the evening after my husband gets back from work and it will more than likely be dark outside so I may need to go to the gym.  Oh boy....
I can't believe I am dreading taking me time...I mean a part of me is excited to do it but the thought how others will react is not something I am going to enjoy dealing with.  Before kids this would not have been an issue but since having my son I really feal GUILT if I am not doing everything for him.  I will get there...I have to.  Hope everyone enjoys there last day of 2011

4 comments:

Beth said...

You have to do for you in order to do for others. This is something that is very hard to realize, and I struggle with it as well. You can't help anyone if you aren't here because you didn't take care of your health!

Andrea said...

Good for you! You have to put yourself first sometimes. I always think about how on the airplane they say to put your mask on first and then help others. You are no good to them if you can't breathe yourself!

Jen said...

I'm with you.. it's really hard to put myself first.. I have a 5 1/2 month old and since I work full time, I always feel guilty if I want to go to the gym in favor of spending time with him.. but in order for us to be good moms, we have to be happy with ourselves and if momma ain't happy, nobody's happy, right?? YOu deserve some you time!!

jennxaz said...

@Jen..your baby is so darn cute!!!!! This is a hard one that is going to take continuous work on my part to be successful, but you are all right I need to do it.