So I have been meaning to post about this but it seems weird and its been a little weird for me to accept.
I was at church last week and hubby does greeting at church and works on the technical aspect of the computers and lighting so I usually sit alone. I could go sit with others but I am not that big into it..I kind of like the alone time, once awhile a few of my friends sit with me but I sit in the same back corner every week. Anyway hubby noticed a blonde in the corner and was wondering who was in my spot, he told me a couple times he thought about it and wondered where I was, if I was late or not coming and then it hit him that that girl was me and he was floored at how much I had changed and he hadn't noticed. Weird right?
So then I was at the store Wednesday grabbing a few last minute thanksgiving stuff..because I swear I forget stuff every year and I ran into the pest guy, he didn't see me so I went up to him and said hi and he gave me a blank stare and I said it was me and then he apologized and said he totally didn't recognize me and that I look great and how was I doing and blah blah blah.... the weird thing for me is that a few people have said they can tell I look great and have lost weight but the majority of the people I know are just being quiet about it so I don't think that much about it. But when you have a couple of those unrecognizable moments it kind of rings home and don't get me wrong..it felt awesome.
I caught my image in the glass a few times passing stores and it doesn't look like me, the girl looking back seems like someone else? But its me...when I see myself in the mirror, it does look like me (maybe with the air let out) but I don't notice that big of a change but yet I do>? weird and indecisive I know. Our pastor talked again yesterday about being grateful in the moment, not waiting until you reach something better but truly taking stock of what you are grateful that exact moment. I have been truly trying everyday to come up with things I am grateful for and I find it gets easier and easier. One thing I have never posted. I am grateful for my weight loss. I keep waiting to get to goal to do that but you know I am VERY grateful that I didn't gain weight over turkey day that I am comfortable in my normal size clothes. That I see myself in pictures now and I don't cringe or try to cover up. I am grateful for the extra energy. I am grateful for my body wanting to work out. I am grateful my body craves better food. I am grateful for the person I have become. What a grateful month to be at such a different place than last year.