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Wednesday, October 3, 2012

Chicago Recap

Sorry I haven't blogged.  I came back from Chicago to a mess at my house.  I was not sure how to blog about it but have decided to be honest but I don't want it to be a downer.

My husband is a recovering alcoholic..sober for 2 years..well I came home to a drunk, my first clue..nobody picked me up from the airport and when I called him he told me to take a shuttle. I called my mom and she picked me up.  Got home and saw right away that he was drunk, I confronted him on it and he denied at first but then admitted to it and started crying.  I had him call his AA buddies and they came over...so did my moms husband who proceeded to chew him out.  I took Johnny to get dinner and when I got home his AA buddies said they were taking him to a meeting and that they would drop him off at my moms house to sober up.  It was really devastating, and I am just kind of numb.  He has since been going to AA meetings everyday and meeting with his AA buddies.  He is apologetic and says that he was miserable the whole time and realized what a mistake it was.  Not sure what to believe.  A part of me says to take Johnny and leave, but the sad thing is I love him.  I have decided not to make any decisions and give it a week.  I hope that is the right decision.

I also came down with a cold...darn plane and germs.  I met some fabulous ladies in Chicago, it was truly amazing how we bonded.  I was surprised that there were some ladies that were not there to meet anyone new.  They really had already developed there friendships and stuck with there comfort zone.  They missed out on some really cool newbies that's for sure.  I was amazed how important food seemed to be for some on the trip.  Being the food addict that I am, I am really struggling to not let food be my driving decision maker.  I was not there to try all the foods of Chicago..I was there to meet some ladies who I have bonded with in the blogger community.  It was really neat to meet my core bloggers that I wanted to meet, because I did and they were everything I expected and more. Laura Belle, Ronnie, Speck, RockbandBarbie, Jen, Beth, Andrea, Sofie..to name a few.  I also over committed ..there just was not enough time to hang with everyone. I really tried but it just didn't always work out.  I met some awesome mom/daughter teams that had me in stitches.  Deb-Kagead  was a total sweetheart and an unexpected treasure to get to know because I never really followed her blog but she was a sweetie.  Clara was hilarious, Catherine I called the homecoming queen because she is just as pretty in person as her blog and she went out of her way to talk to me and get to know me as best as you can with 32 women involved!  I know I am probably forgetting someone but I truly met some great women.
And now some pics


Harmony said...

Wow. I am so sorry you had to come home to that. My Mom is a "recovering" alcoholic. It was really, really hard growing up in that environment as a kid. I can only imagine how it is for a spouse. ((hugs))

I am glad you had fun in Chicago!!

Run, Chelle, Run! said...

I'm so sorry your trip ended that way and I hope that you are able to make whatever decisions are right for you and your son. I'm glad you have your mom close by to help as well! Good luck figuring it all out and I will keep you guys in my thoughts.

The nosy parker in me is dying to hear who, who who?? about BOOBs. LOL Of course, I don't know most of those bloggers so it probably wouldn't mean anything to me anyways. :)

Tina @ The Bandit Girl said...

I am so sorry your husband is having trouble. What an awful sickness (I know because I grew up with it in my family). You are right to wait to make big decisions. Do protect you little one, too. I will be thinking about you.

Ronnie said...

I'm so sorry about your hubby, babe. I say do whatever your gut tells you to. If a little time apart is what you need, get that distance. You have to do what's right for you and Johnny.

If you wanna talk about it, text me. <3

I know you know it, but just as a reminder: I loved meeting you!

Steph said...

sorry to hear about your husband...Growing up with an alcoholic father I know how it could be.

Honestly, I was surprised at how some people I made multiple attempts to engage just completely shut me out. So sorry that the trip was not everything you expected, but the great thing is that you did find a group of ladies who you connected with and have formed a treasured bond!

Jules said...

your trip sounded great but I'm So sorry to hear about coming home to the mess. My ex is an alcoholic. He took my oldest to the bar last week, middle of the week after school. She said she had a sprite, he had a beer and was on the phone the entire time. It really devastated her. Alcohol wrecks lives. Hopefully your hubby can stick to his meetings and keep himself surrounded by his AA buddies.

speck said...


You aren't a downer, it's life! We can put on a front, the smiles and act as if everything is ok or we can be real and let others know that's it's ok to be honest when things aren't perfect.(and I bet someone else can relate and it will help them to know they aren't alone)

As for Chicago, girl I can relate to the food comment. I DID eat(and enjoyed it) and I even tried a few bites of some things that can be triggers but for the most part, I enjoyed staying on track. Heck, I even lost 1.5 pounds!

Time was short indead. Do we really have enough hours in the day to do what we want?

With that said, I too appreciate the ladies who made an extra effort to speak to me regardless of how busy they were.(and likewise I made sure to let others know that I was approachable)

And I always have time for new friends! :)

Love ya Jen!


♫ Drazil ♪ said...

I don't think there is a right or a wrong on what to do here. Only you can know what's right for you - no one else is in your shoes. You're a strong, smart woman and no matter what happens you will remain that. Glad you had fun in Chicago. If I had been there I'd have eaten every meal at the pizza place across the street. I'm slightly addicted to pizza though. LOL

RockBand Barbie said...

Wish I could throw my arms around you and squeeze tight! I am so glad you are taking some time to make any big decisions. Having to make decisions that big is so difficult.

I don't regret for one second that we tried that pizza...it was so good!

So glad that I got to spend so much time with you...you are such a doll!

Butterfly said...

My dear Jenn,

I am sorry that you come home to such heartbreak. My ex-husband is an alcholic...if you need to talk or vent...shoot me an email. I have been there, it's tough! Hang in there and keep your head on straight...don't turn to food to deal with this. You are a strong woman and you can make it through this!

Sarah said...

thinking of you xx

Cheri said...

Jen, I just wanted to say I'm so sorry about coming home to the situation you did. I know you'll make the right choice for your family, you are such a wise and loving woman, with a good head on your shoulders. Get the support you need from the people who love you. ((((hug)))) Good for you for taking all the time you need. Life is complicated. Relationships are too.

Glad you made some good friendships in Chicago.

Momee3021 said...

You know Im here for you if you want a shoulder to lean on or a person to scream to... You do what you need to do and the rest will fall into place. Im sorry - I was a very bad foodie being in Chicago and the US with all that food Ive never tried - how could I not.. LOL. You were strong and not seduced by my stress eating. You are Awesome!!!

Beth said...

How horrible for you and Johnny! I hate that you have to deal with that, because you are an amazing woman that deserves nothing but happiness! I am here for you if you need to talk or if you just need a laugh.

Andrea said...

I'm so glad I got to meet you in Chicago!!!

So sorry that you had to come home to a bad situation. I'll be praying that you will have wisdom to figure out what is best for you.

Lots of love and hugs!!!

adorkbl said...

Awww damn. Giant Hug girl. No advice here. You will figure out what is right for you and Johnny and your heart. Hang in there.

Kristin50 said...

I am here for you always,you are a remarkable woman and I am blessed to call you friend.

I love that you can laugh and are as genuine in person as you are on your blog!

You are in my prayers and if I could hug you I would right now this moment!

MandaPanda said...

I'm late and am SO sorry that I am. I had no idea what you really had to face once you got home. I hope things are straightening out for you.
Remember I'm only a text away!

Great pics!

Beth Ann said...

It was really nice to meet you! I'm so sorry for what you are going through. I honestly can't imagine and I hope things work out well. Sending love!