Really...when will the 100's go away. Today 106...yuck! I am sick of the heat. Thursday and Chicago can't come soon enough.
Yesterday I was going over what I would bring. I remember the wind in Chicago..It was so windy and chilly. I am going to have to bring jacket and scarf and probably many hair ties because that wind can whip it.
I brought hubby to my Weight loss support meeting Saturday...topic....support. It was really great. He got to see what support meetings are like for me. They had us share our Best Support person and our Worst.
I love my hubby, he tells me everyday that I am beautiful...in fact today he said "look how skinny your legs are...you look like a teenager" awwww... we all know I don't have legs of a teenager..but I love that he said so. He helps me celebrate the little NSV's which is awesome.
Worst--I am sure you can guess is my mom. She invites us over and does not ever cook anything I can eat...and doesn't bother asking and then precedes to make comments on how slow I eat, how little I eat, what I eat. She never asks how its going. I gave up talking to her about it because her comments were never positive and always made me depressed.
So we all went around the room and shared....and I cried. I hate how emotional I am but thats exactly it, I have to deal with my emotions now, I can't push them away with food or make them less with food. I now have to deal. Which means that I am more emotional now than I ever have been. I cry more than I ever used to. I am actually a roller coaster ride with so many ups and downs during the day. I hope it mellows out the longer I quit using food to be the answer to my problems and successes. A lot of people wrote down their biggest problem was socializing because we always go out and center our social setting around food and drinks. I guess I don't find that to be a problem. Partially, because we don't go out that often. With a 5 year old, we are limited where we can go so we don't go often--let alone he still doesn't sit still for very long so going out is not like it used to be.
I know that I ultimately am in control of what I put in my mouth...and I am honest...I pray for God to give me the strength everyday. Some people don't get it, they still blame other things for why they are fat and why they can't get skinny.
We had 2 new people there, newly banded by a couple of weeks. We had some veterans there who had reached goal. I will admit, there is one veteran girl there who has lost 150 lbs and I have a hard time liking her. She is so in your face about it that it really bothers me. I personally don't think anyones journey is the same and what works for one person may not work for another. I appreciate her sharing her journey but sometimes I think she thinks she uncovered the secret behind the success and thinks its for everyone. I really try to be open minded and appreciate her journey but othertimes...I just wish she would shut her trap and let others talk.
One of the newbies(I actually consider myself...middle of the journey..I am halfway to goal) brought her support and he stayed in the lobby on his computer the whole time...I felt bad for her...I think everyone needs support to help pick you up when you are down.
I would have put you all on my list as best support because blogging has been so therapeutic for me. I did mention it during the meeting, but nobody else there blogs or has even heard of the blogging community. Such a shame too.