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Friday, September 21, 2012

I can lose the weight and still feel ugly!

When I started this journey I always said I wouldn't let the baggy skin affect me.  That it is the price I pay for letting myself go.  You know what....I am having issues with the skin.  I feel so ugly naked.  Hubby tells me daily how hot he thinks I am yet I cover up and turn off lights and feel just plain ugly.  I don't feel sexy.
When I get dressed, I can feel cute and skinny but when the clothes come off...I feel ugly and fat.
Ok enough pity...

Saturday is my Weight Loss support group meeting and I am bringing hubby...should be interesting

Last night was busy.  I volunteered at Johnnys school and worked the book fair all afternoon.  Then took Johnnys' buddy home and started to get ready for Parent teacher conference.  Needless to say working out just did not make it into the mix.  So no rest this weekend must workout all days.

I can't wait for Chicago...I can't wait to be selfish and think about myself for four days.  Not have to get up in the middle of the night to put johnny back to sleep.  Not have to cook breakfast,lunch and dinner.  Not have to do laundry(I swear I do it every other day).
Excited to have some cocktails, giggle, get my hair done, see some art and just be me!
Hope you all have a fabulous weekend...eat well and exercise!

12 comments:

Sarah G said...

I know what you mean! I still dress to hide my excess belly skin as best I can but I know it's there. Everyone has imperfections, I'm still learning to accept mine for what they are.

Ronnie said...

6 days!!

And don't even talk to me about loose skin. You ain't seen nothin' until you've seen ME naked. LOL

MandaPanda said...

I feel the same way about the skin! It drives me nuts..Plastics are definitely in my future...possibly sooner rather than later because it's starting to affect my psyche.

Chris said...

I'm loving my Spanx, but yeah, some of the issues I get with skin being behind hot, non-wicking, and constricting fabric all day aren't exactly esteem-building.

Your hubby loves you - focus on that!

Cheri said...

I had awful loose belly skin since after my first baby - just with "normal" weight gain (35 pounds). It always bugged me, too. I don't know how I'll feel if I lose weight now, I know I'll hate my belly, but it will just be one area!

I read some book where the character would look at it and love it because she saw it as some sign of her motherhood, blah blah..but I couldn't get myself to reframe it that way. :-) I guess that is the goal, though. To accept our body for what it has been through and can do, not compare it to a glossy magazine ideal? I'm glad your hubs is supportive, mine is too.

And YAY about your upcoming vay cay!

Beth said...

I hear ya on the skin, I have awful belly and arm skin and I hate it! My bf is supportive too but somehow that doesn't help when I look in the mirror. Plastic is def in my future but I am a long way from that!

Leigh C. said...

We are our own worst critics. But I'm learning to love myself more, lose skin and all. It's part of your journey:)

Jules said...

I completely understand the feeling of hating our bodies. I stumbled upon this movement called "exposed", take a picture of your body and list all the things you love about it, what it's done for you, etc. It was life changing for me. I truly have a better love for my body after browsing these blogs. Start with this link....
http://head-heart-health.com/203/health-body/ive-been-exposed/

On the bottom of her page is more links to other participants.
HUGS to you!!

speck said...

Yeah, my bat wings cause me issues! But I had them before I got fat.(genetics)

I like Leigh's attitude but I would love to have the surgery. But I'm to chicken. lol

Sandra

Elizabeth said...

Amen!! You are so pretty though! and we are def our own worst critics!

tz said...

So with you there...it's interesting you say it's the price you pay for letting yourself go...I feel that way too, sort of like I deserve it because I was weak...but it's that kind of thinking that can be detrimental...I'm going to try to think I deserve to have that extra skin removed when the time comes...especially after working hard to get it off :D

Run, Chelle, Run! said...

I so hear you. Someone took a picture of me coming in to the finish at my last leg this weekend and all I could see was the flab on my legs jiggling (and I usually love my legs) in the pic! Not that there is a magic cure for that...I think it's one of those things that will come in time and I'll accept it? I don't know... :(