So I went to a passion party this saturday..was not looking forward to it. It was for a new friend of mine so I did not know anyone else there....can you say AWKWARD.
Plus I hate being a fatty at one of these. My issues in the bedroom stem a lot from my self esteem. I feel like a fatty thru and thru. I am hoping the weight loss will clear up some of issues but probably not...its probably another head issue I have to work thru..boy that list is long.
Also had no idea you could spend $300 on a toy...oh my that to me constitutes payments.
It was not as bad as I thougth it would be...but it was not something I would care to do again. I did it just to support my new mom friend...also found out some intimate things about her I really did not want to know.
Maybe I am just too conservative?
I did get this cool heating pad in the shape of a hert that fits in your hand. You just crack this dime thing floating in it and it instantly get hot for about an hour...nice to warm your hands. I find that I go to bed freezing and wake up sweating. This thing helps not go to bed freezing so I don't wear 10 layers of clothes...I am one that will put on sweats and sweatshirt to bed...my hubby likes the air conditioning turned real low and in the winter the windows open....brrrrr
My dad an aunt are coming to town next weekend for my birthday...they are from Idaho so its always nice to see them. Even though I am having surgery thursday and may not be up for much.
I have been working a bit on my head issues because I sure use food for celebrations, sorrows, happy times, sad times, hurt times....really I just think food is my best friend and it is hard to let it go and find somethimg else. I can see why therapy may be needed. Without food I am not sure what to do with my emotions sometimes...I get angry and I am not sure why am angry but when I really think about it its usually an emotion that I am feeling and I don't know how to express it. I used to think I was laid back...now I just think I squwelched my emotions from coming up. I also did not believe in talking about everything but I think I may need to go there until I find a good way to deal with my emotions...I think hubby is going to need counseling to deal with me because my emotions seem to be all over like I am always on my TOM. Have a great Tuesday people!