Awesome weekend!

So I finally got my fitbit set up...I had to call support and they reset a few things for me....now I am truly tracking my steps from day to day.  I had a great day yesterday cleaning the garage and putting up shelves...I did my most steps in a day almost 7000...boy hitting 10000 is going to be hard...I am aiming for it today.
I had a great bday for my boy on Saturday(Peter Piper) I bought an extra 300 tokens and passed them out to my 20+ kids and that kept them all busy for the complete couple of hours...parents were praising my name as there kids went home sleepy!  Yay me!  Johnny then went home and spent the rest of the day playing with his star wars pod fighters!
I am needing a fill and trying to be patient.  I had gained 6 lbs between the first of april and my revision surgery but I am slowly wittling that down.  I hope to have it all gone by next week for my weigh in and 2nd fill.  I think the added exercise is going to help.
I still have a house guest .... my friend Jay but he has been helping me get the house organized and has been pushing me to exercise so that has been awesome.
Hope you all had a great weekend.

lapband talk friend died...

So I had to post because I was a little freaked out.  I am on lapbandtalk.com  a lot and one of the regulars 54Shirley died this weekend.  She last posted last week because she went into the ER because her band had slipped and the doctors told her it was strangling her lung.  They also told her that people that suffer from a slip usually don't make it....WTF I have never heard that.
She had gone into a series of seizures and says it is from the band..she said she died for 4 min in ER before they brought her back.  They told her the band is strangling the stomach which in turn has lower left lung engulfed and not functional.  I was shocked they let her go home without removing the band.
The clincher...the doctor told her that they are seeing more and more of people that have been banded for 5 plus years that have a 50/50 shot of failure or success...I never saw those statistics...then again the stats I got were from Allergan I guess they could lie...well I hope to find out more but sadly may never know because we are all usually a little anonymous.

Not as Hungry in the AM

So I know I have read where some banders only have a shake in the morning because they are super tight...well with my first fill I notice that pretty much during the day until 4 my band is pretty tight can only eat 1/2c of food at a time.  But at 4:00pm my band wakes up and I can eat pretty much anything...so this is WAY bad because I am an evening eater.  I can't have this or I may go insane.  Evenings are the worst for me I use all my will power to resist snacking all dang night....and I will admit I do not adhere to the stop eating 3 hours before bed...I wish I could!
I am lucky to stop 1 hour before bed time.
So I am going to have to have a better plan in the evening...not sure what it is yet but something has to be set up better so I don't consume most of my calories in the evening.
Other than that...having a great time...playing with my fitbit...wishing it would reset itself everyday so I could get a better step count..not sure how to do that.
Thanks MDLAPBAND for the tip on how to link myfitnesspal with it ...if only I could remember myfitnesspal password...shees.

Zen.... my house is clean!

I don't know what it is about a clean house but it sets my mind at ease...its not racing thinking of all the things that need to be done.  Its like I slowly exhale and can breathe again.  I tried my moms cleaning people and after a few cancellations and reschedules they showed up and cleaned their arses off.  LOVE it!
Today I am working from home in peace.
I am going to my sons school today as he is awarded two books for his birthday to the library.  I have been doing pretty good with some restriction...I don't eat as much.  It does not keep me full longer but at least I don't need as much to feel full.  I scheduled my check up and second fill for May 9th...hopefully I can wait that long without taking out the local McDonalds.  Its getting hot here in sunny AZ...it was 90's all week almost 100...not looking forward to summer yet---ughh...On news front...I got a fitbit.  I wish it interacted with myfitnesspal so I have been wondering if I should quit myfitnesspal and enter my food in the computer app for my fitbit...oh decisions.

No Birthday Cake

So my mom wanted to grill steaks or take me out to eat for my bday but I knew that 1.) the steak would be hard to eat--she cooks it well done and would have been a bit dry 2.) Going out to eat is usually full of bad choices.  So I told her and Jeff to come over and I would make chicken tortilla soup.  She came over and I noticed she did not bring a cake---I said WTF....she laughed and said she figured I would not have had a piece so she didn't want to tempt me.  I guess that was probably a good thing but I was kind of looking forward to a piece of cake and ice cream .... oh well better choices were probably made yesterday.
Today I am glad there is no leftover cake in the house...I would have diligently worked at getting rid of it everyday a piece at a time and that would not have made my journey successful.  So this is the first year I did not have cake on my birthday.
On a child front, I am having issues with my son at school not wiping well.  He just is too lazy to stop and wipe completely and so the teachers have been getting after me...its hard to teach when I only get 2 poops a week on the weekend from him to teach him.  Hopefully I can get this working before the start of school (Kindergarten) next year...but this has been an issue all year for him.  Sometimes he is good but about 1 a month he slacks off.  Not sure how to motivate him to be a big boy and clean up after himself.

some restriction....

So I have noticed a bit more restriction than before the fill the doc has done a difference.  I think bread may need to go by by.  I had a sandwich on Friday...didn't stay down...then we went out for tappanyaki and that was fine..even the rice.  I did have scallops so that was ok but I could have eaten it all...can you say piggee.  So I have had company all weekend, a friend is here visiting for a couple of weeks and my dad and aunt are here for the weekend, that makes eating hard because we go out to eat a lot while they were here.  I tried to make good choices  but that is sometimes hard.  I made brats and corn on the cob and again I had a stuck episode..not sure if it was bread or corn  but I am pretty sure it was the bread...So I am going to back away from any bread for quite awhile.  Surgery...I am pretty much back to normal.  Today I have a new cleaning crew coming in and I am hoping they do a fabulous job...I got the crew my mom uses and they do a great job for her so I have high hopes for myself.
I am 41 today....not sure that I feel much different but I am glad that 41 is the year I get myself back in shape.  I have hopes that this will be a great year.

BYOC

BYOC - Bring Your Own Crazy!

It’s Friday – so it’s time for BYOC – Bring Your Own Crazy! We answer 5 questions to get to know each other better and to give our blogging brains a break! Copy to your own blog and enjoy!


1. Do you have any siblings? What is your relationship with them? Good, bad, ugly?


I do not have any brothers or sisters

2. Let’s talk pizza. Do you prefer homemade or restaurant? What toppings are your fave?

I hate homemade but love restaurant.

3. When is the last time you cried – in sadness and in joy?

This one is easy..I cried yesterday in the recovery room at the hospital, I was telling a nurse my port revision story and I was just so happy that the surgery was over and I did not feel like crap and I had my first fill....Happiness and drugs made tears come to my eyes....although I am a crier.  I also cried the other day talking to my mom, I felt bad for her she is dealing with quite an ordeal her hubby is suffering from depression and I think it takes a strong person to live with a person who struggles with depression.  He is rarely happy and that to me must make life miserable for all who is around him.  I am trying to understand depression but its hard.  The old me would have told him to get over it and buck up but now I realize he would love to if he could but just can't  I find as I get older that things are just not black and white there are chemical imbalances in people that make it difficult for them to funtion like regular people....this could be a whole blog post in itself so I digress..

4. Do you own a gun – one that is specifically yours? Do you know how to use it?

You know this is an interesting story.  I grew up in Montana where everyone takes gun safety in the 7th grade for PE...seriously weird I know but there are so many guns in Montana that it is probably a good thing.  So I was actually against guns my whole life...my family not so much they go hunting every year and freeze the meat and eat it all year long.  Finally when we were going to have kids I decided I had to make them safe.  So I joined the family with there gun craze but also bought two gunsafes and practice gun safety by storing bullets in a separate location.  I own my own shot gun...and joined a womens league last year and took 3rd place in my division...fun times.  I also own a James Bond Beretta...I love that small gun but I am a terrible aim with it.  My hubby has his collection which are quite different from mine.  I think if you own a gun you better know how to use it and be safe with it...no keeping a loaded gun under your pillow---or anywhere if you have kids.  That thing better be locked up.

5. Repeat question. Summarize your week!

My week was spectacular.  Had my surgery yesterday and I am sore today but better than I thought I would be.  He put a mesh in to hold my port in place rather than just a couple stiches to my muscle so he thinks this will hold it because I told him I don't want to go thru this surgery again anytime soon.   I also got a 3.5 cc fill and I can kinda feel it...kinda.  but I was only on liquids yesterday...today I move on to mushies...so the closer I get to food I will be able to tell more what kind of restriction I have

Port Revision Surgery Tomorrow

Just a quick note to say I go in for surgery tomorrow and a slight fill--suppose to put in 3 cc....can't wait to get the show on the road..hoping for a quick recovery as I am only taking today off and then working from home Friday and Monday.  I have tried to work ahead and get my stuff in order so they are easy work days but you never know if production support will rear its ugly head...sometimes you can't plan for those problems.
I am stocking up on food for the family tonight and making sure laundry is done and put away...laundry..that never seems to end.
My dad and aunt come into town tomorrow so I am hoping I am up for some hosting while they are here but I know they are not expecting much.
I love all your support and hope to be more up beat after today.

Passion Party

So I went to a passion party this saturday..was not looking forward to it.  It was for a new friend of mine so I did not know anyone else there....can you say AWKWARD.
Plus I hate being a fatty at one of these.  My issues in the bedroom stem a lot from my self esteem.  I feel like a fatty thru and thru.  I am hoping the weight loss will clear up some of issues but probably not...its probably another head issue I have to work thru..boy that list is long.
Also had no idea you could spend $300 on a toy...oh my that to me constitutes payments.
It was not as bad as I thougth it would be...but it was not something I would care to do again.  I did it just to support my new mom friend...also found out some intimate things about her I really did not want to know.
Maybe I am just too conservative?
I did get this cool heating pad in the shape of a hert that fits in your hand.  You just crack this dime thing floating in it and  it instantly get hot for about an hour...nice to warm your hands.  I find that I go to bed freezing and wake up sweating.  This thing helps not go to bed freezing so I don't wear 10 layers of clothes...I am one that will put on sweats and sweatshirt to bed...my hubby likes the air conditioning turned real low and in the winter the windows open....brrrrr
My dad an aunt are coming to town next weekend for my birthday...they are from Idaho so its always nice to see them.  Even though I am having surgery thursday and may not be up for much.
I have been working a bit on my head issues because I sure use food for celebrations, sorrows, happy times, sad times, hurt times....really I just think food is my best friend and it is hard to let it go and find somethimg else.  I can see why therapy may be needed.  Without food I am not sure what to do with my emotions sometimes...I get angry and I am not sure why am angry but when I really think about it its usually an emotion that I am feeling and I don't know how to express it.  I used to think I was laid back...now I just think I squwelched my emotions from coming up.  I also did not believe in talking about everything but I think I may need to go there until I find a good way to deal with my emotions...I think hubby is going to need counseling to deal with me because my emotions seem to be all over like I am always on my TOM.  Have a great Tuesday people!

BYOC

Whether you’re a parent or not….what do you think the appropriate age is to talk to a child about “the birds and the bees”?
Oh boy....really don't want to go there anytime soon.  I did just have to explain to BOTH my hubby and child that chicken eggs will never have a chick in them unless a rooster fertilizes them.  Both my son and hubby thought that a chicken egg could become a chick without a rooster...seriously...and my child is only 4...no execuse for hubby.  Johnny then wanted to know what the rooster did to help the chick along....I said it was a hard process to explain and I would explain it when he was older...he was cool with that.  I am hoping not until 11 years old will I need to talk about it.

2. What’s the color scheme in your bedroom?
Scheme? I am boring and everything is tan, carpet tan, walls tan, bedspread tan.  I need to get me some decorating skills

3. What kind of shampoo and conditioner do you use on your hair?
I use Redken blonde glam





4. And since it’s nearly summer time…do you paint your own toes, go some place for pedicures or not paint your toes at all? What’s your fave toe color?
I sometimes paint them myself if I am in a pinch and can't get to a salon...otherwise I try to get them done once a month.  I usually stick to reds and pinks but I have been liking the whole 1 toe or 1 finger a different color kind of thing!

5. Repeat question: Summarize your week!
Real Life is ok...waiting for my port revision surgery next week and kind of feel like I am just trying to maintain my weight right now.  I am hungry most of the time so I have been filling up on vegetables
Blog is ok ... my heart just hasn't been into it.

Ten Things Thursday

It's time for that wonderful day where we blog a list of totally random things ...thanks, Laura, for getting this started
1.) Well I have been going over in my head if I should quit blogging for awhile until I have my surgery next week.  I get depressed reading blogs about how people are doing with there new fills and I know I should have 3 fills in me by now....waaa..waaa.waaa
2.) My hubby got the offer on his new job so he will be working from home starting in June.  This will be great I will be able to work out without any guilt because he will be home more to watch Johnny.  I will get to see him more than I do now as well which is always nice.
3.) I got a new boss at work.  I am a little nervous wondering how it will go  I have a new title Biztalk System Administrator...oooh laa laa
4.) One of my closest friends is coming to visit for a month because him and his baby mama are having issues and his daughter here in town from a previous marriage is now a teenager with major issues...should be interesting
5.) My sons 5th birthday party is coming up at the end of the month and he is driving me crazy how he talks about it EVERY DAY!  I hope I make it to the birthday party before I strangle someone...just kidding.
6.) Went to a family easter dinner and they all knew about my surgery so just as I thought the one lady I told, told them all.  I didn't talk to them about it because frankly its none of there business and I am not ready to share my journey with my in-laws.
7.)  My dad and aunt are suppose to be coming down in a few weeks and I am really looking forward to seeing them.  I will be recovering from my port revision surgery at the time but even with all the drugs I hope I remember there visit---bahh ha ha
8.)  I can't get into Conda on the biggest loser no matter how much I try...I just don't like her.
9.)  I am going to a passion party this weekend...Not looking forward to it....one of my 'new' mom friends all but twisted my arm saying how she would really like me to be there and how its her birthday and this is what she wanted to do....ughhhhh ok I will go
10.)  I may need to up who I am following in blog land...some of my favorite bloggers are not blogging enough for my stalking a##$@ss

Carnie Wilson lap band eh?

So I am not sure how I feel about Carnie Wilson getting the lap band after she had gastric bypass.  In a way I am kind of wondering why she thinks she can get this to work?  What has changed in her to make her think this will work when gastric did not?  I totally think she left her band hanging and it was rude for her to not let them know but then again I was thinking why can't she go on tour a month after she gets her band?  Band surgery is not that hard to where she would be down for a month....I mean really I was back at work after a week.  She should be fine to tour after 4 weeks.
While I am bitching I noticed that a few ladies at my Weight Loss support group don't really eat food.  They stick to liquids(protein shakes and bars) and rarely add "real" food in.  I thought the goal was to eat "real" food and to try to eliminate shakes and bars and use them only as necessary?  I can see some being tight in the am and having a shake then but why not eat real food for lunch and dinner?  They seem to keep getting fills when they have problems eating food.  Its confusing to me and I have a hard time feeling any sympathy to a bander who is tight but not losing and not really eating food decides to get another fill....REALLY maybe you need to evaluate what you are eating and exercising before automatically thinking a fill is the answer.

Flipped Port

So I am back...I had taken last week off for spring break and boy it was hard to boot up my machine today!  So lots of news on the band front.  I went in last Wednesday for my second fill and he dug around for about 45 minutes again...went thru 5-6 needles and guess what he couldn't find the opening to my port.  He finally agreed that my port flipped.  He had placed my port on my waistline and that is exactly where my pants ride so it was not the most comfortable place to heal so he is going to move the port up higher as well.  I don't really blame him(my doc) I have read that everyone scars differently and heals differently and there is no telling if your scarring could cause your port to flip but it can.  I am bummed because it is going to cost more and I have to take more time off work.  I am also bummed because I have not lost much because I have yet to get a fill.  I am almost 2 months out of surgery and still no restriction...I have really lost the weight on my own for the most part and I am sick of white knuckling it on not eating.  I am getting burned out of dieting and this is usually where I say screw it and jump ship.  I am trying to hang in there but not sure if I will make it to my surgery date April 19th.  Wished I could have gotten in sooner but I don't want to take much time off work so I needed a Thursday or Friday surgery.  I am only planning on taking 1 day off and working from home on Friday and Monday...hopefully I am not in as much pain as the original surgery because I was really down for 7 days for the first surgery and so here I go....
My doc is going to put 3cc's in during surgery and he originally said I wait 3 weeks for my first fill but I am going to push it because he is not touching the band just the port....thats it for now I have a ton of blogs to catch up on
Love you guys!