I was a little disappointed in myself that I didn't tell LapBandGirl how much she influenced my journey. When I first started thinking about the lapband I started reading blogs of lapbanders and hers was the first one. I remember seeing her post(as she does to us newbies) that we need to be accountable and what will make us accountable. That really sunk in to me. It is the reason I started blogging. By blogging about this journey I reflect on each day of my successes and failures and I reflect on the failures and try to figure out a way not to let them happen again. I also started my food journal and go to as my support group meetings as I can.
Amy, who I really didn't follow(but will now!) but got to know this Wednesday at our meeting said something to me that is really sticking with me. She asked if I was "out" with my band. I said OH NO of course not. She asked me why and without hesitating I said it was in case I failed. She laughed and said "Don't you think it would make you more accountable if everyone knew" That was like a slap in the face...she was right. By people knowing I was doing something to loose weight it was then up to me to prove them wrong that this was an easy out. Now, I am not going and telling everyone what I had done..yet....but I am starting to realize that I think its about time to start preparing myself for that "Out". I mean really I don't want to give that false hope that I did this all with diet and exercise...in fact I don't really think of it as a diet as more of me changing the way I eat and what I eat...its a new lifestyle.
I have to add that both of these ladies are truly beautiful on the outside and inside and seeing and talking to them was awesome.
So its Friday. My hubby is going out of town to California to watch the Dada concert with his buddy, coming back Saturday night...My mom is watching Johnny tonight and I am going to go out! I can't wait..hopefully I can stay awake! Saturday Johnny and I have swim class and then a twins birthday party. On Sunday I am going to the movie with a girlfriend(one of Johnnys buddies moms) where we put the kids in the playzone at the movie theater and then her and I are going to see silverlinings playbook. Can't Wait!
Hope you all have a fabulous weekend!
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So glad you got to meet with them! I'm sure it was awesome. Also - I *so* want to see Silver Linings Playbook!
The boys' birthday isn't until July, don't be silly. ;)
I second what Laura said. ;-)
Sounds like a fun weekend. :-)
I was heavily influenced my LBG, too! I really owe her a solid! As for Amy, she makes a good point...hmmmm (thinking here)....
nice post, BTW
I am so jealous of all you people who get to meet up with fellow banded bloggers.
Enjoy your day of solitude.
Awwwww...great post! I love that I can share my idea of how important online accountability is for me.
I totally dig that you will be more open about your band :) I miss ya already. When are you coming to San Fran?
I heart you. I just needed to say that. xoxo
I have been "out" to my closer friends, especially those who have also had weight problems, but I'm not out at work (I work with a bunch of endurance athletes, and I am the ONLY fat person in my building) or among people who don't know me so well. If anyone who is struggling with their weight asks me, I think I will tell them.
I have mixed feelings on the "outing".
I do know that I am outted with quite a lot of very close family/friends and that doesn't keep me accountable at all.(unfortunately)
Hell, I never give those people a second thought when I allow myself to get back into my disease and binge eat.
Just being honest. :)
Sandra
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