So I know weigh in is tomorrow but I snuck a peak and am totally excited for another killer week. I may surpass last week and I thought last week was a killer week! I swear though when you hit the green zone things just workout beautifully. I don't have as many cravings, food just becomes a side consequence not something I obsesses on.
So I have been reflecting on the last time I was this weight. That would be 1997...ummm 16 years ago...yikes! I was 26 and I remember my mom telling me she thought I was too skinny at this weight. I don't feel that this time. I do remember I was on optifast...not eating any food. I had just lost over 100lbs on this diet. I had moved here from MN at my highest ever 318 in 1995. I was miserable. Here I was overweight..didn't know many people, no family here and I was sitting in my apartment and decided this was enough I was sick of being lonely and uncomfortable. I started working out twice a day everyday and was able to drop down to 175...then I got burned out and the weight slowly started coming back on...I am not sure I stayed at 175 but a month. 175 was my goal weight.
How will this time be different? Well I have changed the way I live. What I am doing is not a diet, its a new way of eating and living my life. If I truly have to have something to eat that is naughty...I do...but then start right back at eating better and try to incorporate those naughty calories into my daily intake. I don't kill myself in exercise...but I do try to get in movement and at least 30min of some form of exercise every day.
Plus---I am not stopping at 175, I am going to shoot for a lower number 150 but I will re-evaluate when I get to 150
I am also working on my self...trying to be a nice person that when people hear my name they think good things. I am trying to volunteer at school and church more. I truly believe in random acts of kindness and participate in them daily. Sometimes its just as simple as telling someone I don't know that I like there shirt or hair or pretty fingernail polish. Othertimes, its buying the guy behind me in line his starbucks. I really am trying to change my life both inside and out.