Crazy work week. I had to put in 87 hours last week at work preparing for a release..I am exhausted. This weekend I spent time responding to an RFP for our company which is writing...I suck at writing but it got done.
I met up with Amy and Jen this weekend for a quick bander brunch..those are always fun and we laughed and got caught up. I cherish those moments because it is always so easy..they get it.
Johnny and I have been having fun when we can...we went bowling and had a good time, in fact I promised we would go again this weekend.
I have been LOVING my therapy sessions. We have just recently got involved in my eating and why I eat. It seems to always go back to my mom and dad. My mom was severely sexually abused and beaten as a child. I am amazed sometimes when I hear stories of what happened. Needless to say she is not an emotional person. Growing up we never talked about feelings. Which is why I have a hard time expressing them and working through them. Also I had a lot of let downs with my dad, waiting for him to pick me up for visitation as a kid..and he never showed up...when he did show up he was high or drunk and I would have almost panick attacks as a kid being around him because he was erratic in behavior and basically scared me. Well I guess those feelings again I never worked through so they manifest themselves in other ways...in how I deal with men in particular. I always used to run away from them. Which is why we are delving into the fact that I have gained and lost over 100lbs multiple times in my life...she thinks its because I always go back to not being able to handle the feelings and shoving them down and coping with it, with food. Its been very interesting.....On the weight front...I am sad to report that I have gained 10lbs. I am bummed but I know I will take it off when I get the fills going again. I am exercising slowly..hard to do when I was working so much these last couple of weeks. So I hope to remedy that and in turn keep that gain to only 10lbs. Today I am going to try to set up my first fill for July 13..hopefully they will let me...its just shy of 8weeks since my EGD..but I wanted to get in a couple fills before I go back to North Dakota. Well thats it for now my lovelies...I will try to post more this week. I miss all of you terribly and feel like I don't know what you have all been up to so I am going to try to read up on all of you that are my faves!