NO fill for 8 weeks!

So I got a bit of bad news on my EGD.  Apparently I am really stressed...so much so that I have an extreme amount of acid in my stomach and esophogus and it is irritating my band.  So my doc says no fill for 8 weeks and I have to take some medecine to reduce the acid...ughh...I almost cried.  But I guess that I need to go to therapy even more to work thru my stress.  In fact, she is having me read this book that is called
How to heal your life by Louise Hays

Funny...this book suggests that every ailment you have is caused by you...even to the fact that built up resentments can cause Cancer....I am not done with the book yet...its a quick read and I am not sure I agree with everything she says..but she does make some interesting points.  And we all know that my stressful life right now is the cause of my band irritation.  I am going to therapy twice a week..and doing my homework..hopefully I can right myself and get myself back on track.

Johnny and I had a blast this weekend.  He got a haircut

and he road his go-kart around the yard

Which I admit..scared the crap out me..I still can't believe my parents bought him this thing..but he loves it and we supervise him while he is out there....of course, now he wants a dirt bike!

So today I packed my breakfast(oatmeal) and lunch(taco salad) and my workout clothes to hit the gym tonight.  Hopefully I can stay pretty close on track and not gain to much...but I will admit I know I will gain.  I am just eating A LOT more than I used to and will be for 8 more weeks.
Hope you all had a fabulous weekend

Maintenance?

So I got my total unfill yesterday in order to prep for my yearly EGD (scope down esophagus to stomach to look for any slip, hernia's, gall bladder stones, or dilation) and low and behold I had more in my band than I thought..they took out 5 cc's.  I thought I had 4.3cc.  I also thought it was funny because most people think they have more in there band than they do but not me...guess the sucker is not leaking!
I also weighed less at the doctor office...I weighed in there at 162 fully clothed..that was awesome.  He was shocked at how well I had done since February (my last fill).  He told me now he wants me to maintain that and work on it for 2 years maintenance...I said whoa...I am 12 lbs from goal and he chuckled..telling me I am hard core but that he was happy with my loss and I am a star bander...made me happy to hear that from him.  It was weird to hear maintenance from him...because I can't imagine maintenance...that seems weird...LapBand Gal is in maintenance...Poonapalooza is in maintenance..but me..I am still the fluffy girl in my mind.  Oh the head games I have gone thru in this journey...will I ever think like a normal person?  Guess that's why I need to go to therapy.
Speaking of therapy..I have a session tonight with my pastor..I am looking forward to it.  I can use some spiritual therapy.
So I will say not having any fill...I had a whole wheat 6 in turkey at subway yesterday...and a diet coke...wholly yummy batman...it tasted like pure heaven having some bread and a soda.  For dinner I had pork loin and a salad..I had a snack of strawberries and kiwi....it was a good food day!
Not sure what I will have today thinking of a chipotle chicken bowl no cheese no sourcream...used to be my favorite...but I think I will skip the soda and go back to my crystal light.
So I hope you all have a fabulous weekend.  I don't see me blogging again until next week.  Be safe!

New Workout clothes and a loss!

Weigh in Wednesday

Last Week 166
This Week 163
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Total loss 3lbs

BUT I am getting a total unfill today so I don't expect to sustain it next week....I am going to give it a try but I don't have high hopes.

I did go clothes shopping and took a few quick pics in dressing room.....not the best shots and yes it was cold in there! lol!

I will say I was pretty excited that both outfits size M....I can't remember ever buying a medium...I mean I must have at some point but I don't.  I also got a pink outfit at armour that is Johnnys favorite but I forgot to snap a pic and I also got a highlighter yellow shirt(can you say 80's bright!)
All in all I had a blast trying on clothes at Nike and Armour at the outlets.  I was pretty stoked at not getting the biggest sizes but I will say I was challenged to cover my arms up a bit.  I just don't have pretty arms and trying to keep the flaps down was difficult..wish it was not 100 here and I could do long sleeve but that is just plain silly in Phx AZ to be wearing long sleeve to work-out in.

New Exercise Clothes!! Yippee!

Called my doctor office and he got me in for my EGD on Friday-that was super quick.  I am getting unfilled on Wednesday...scared to death about Thursday and Wednesday with no fill but its only 2 days..how much damage can I do in 2 days...I am already thinking about eating a turkey sandwhich from subway(ok dreaming about it) and then I get a fill on Saturday..I am sure its just to add some of my fill back not the whole 4.3oz but even if its 3 its better than being wide open all memorial day weekend...hopefully I will be back to full in 2 weeks after that.
I made a therapy appointment on Monday..figured I needed to talk to someone because I have so many emotions right now and it all is so confusing.
Yesterday I got in 2 protein shakes along with chili for lunch...I know not much but I also got in 64oz of water...that is more than I have eaten in a long time.  Today I am planning those same shakes and a small lunch again.  I am just glad I am able to get some real food in there...I have been so nauseous and sick to my stomach that the thought of food just upset me.  So I am assuming my stress level is coming down.
I am going shopping today for some workout gear..yes, I am going to start running again..and I am actually pretty excited about it.  With Johnny in summer camp I have time to work out before I pick him up..it was what I did last year...so I am pretty pumped for it to start.  I have been walking and getting in 10000 - 15000 steps a day but I was not doing cardio..and I actually plan to only do 30 min cardio and 30 min at the weights..yes adding some weights in order to try to firm up what I got.  So first step..get some cute clothes to wear-lol!  I am excited to shop..in a real store..not a thrift store...I just can't do used spandex!  I may even get new tennis shoes....I have saved up quite a bit so I can get 3 new outfits and maybe some new tennis shoes...so EXCITED!

Nice RnR weekend!

What a great weekend!  Got my car fixed and they gave me a good deal kept it under 500 and I had to replace the tire.(which was my fault) so I feel so much better driving around now.
Got my hair done...feel refreshed.. EXCEPT...she said she noticed my hair is thinning...yikes...I told her I have not been eating very well.  I am not getting in my protein and not eating..its been this way for about 6 weeks...I know bad..I need to change that.  So I brought my protein powder to work and plan on getting a shake in at lunch in addition to my lunch as that is the time I eat the most.
I also decided to call and make my EGD appointment before I lose the awesome insurance I have thru my hubbies work.  Even though I hate getting unfilled and working thru the fills...I need to do it so I might as well have it paid for.  I know my insurance is ok its just that I have a $5000 deductible which takes quite awhile to hit before they cover 80% but I guess I shouldn't complain because at least I will be covered.
On to some great pics of me and the girls and our kids at the pool yesterday..I so needed that RnR

Johnny had a blast playing with the older girls(Maya and her friends..) he asked when we can do it again!
Mac enjoyed the time we played in the grass..but he just was not into the pool...we will have to try again at a later date!

Fixing those broken things!

Oh my got a busy work day today.  I have an RFP I need to read and help write to...I hate writing(ok ironic that I blog...but you all know I spell horrible and I write as I talk) that is why I chose the computer field is because my writing is terrible.  But alas I am helping write the technical response to the RFP.  I have 3 meetings today from 10-2...yep right over lunch..that sucks too.  I usually enjoy grabbing lunch and going for a walk...won't be able to do that today.
This weekend I am getting my car fixed up, touching up my hair color and cut, and waterslides with some girlfriends.  I am super stoked  because it should be fun.
I had a crappy day yesterday..it started ok but ended bad.  I thought I could pick up hubby because he still doesn't have car and is waiting on golf cart registration(he lost it) it was core knowledge night at Johnnys school and they go over what the kids have made all year.  It was cool to see what Johnny made but hubby just grilled me all night about getting back together.  I finally said I had already talked to lawyer and I wasn't interested in getting back together...he was upset..lots of tears..made me sad.  I don't want to hurt him, but I guess its going to.  Plus he will probably get served today and I know that is going to make him mad.
Water Heater should be replaced today and then I found I need to call on the washing machine..it quit working again.  We really need a new one, but because we are selling the house I am just going to fix it again  because I am sure the new owners will want the washing machine and I don't want to buy one.  I would like to list the house next week so hopefully we can agree on a real estate agent and price.  We settled finally on Johns truck he wrecked back in February so they should be cutting a check June 3 for him to be able to go get a new vehicle...that will be nice for him and then I am hoping I can get the golf cart.  I would like to keep that thing to tool around in and I don't think he will have room for it when he moves so I am keeping my fingers crossed.
Hope you all have a great weekend!

Weigh In Wednesday

First I got to have you go follow a newbie...she is an AZ blogger and is on the 6month wait to get her band...she is super excited and has been stocking the blogs..like we all did  DrrtGrl

So yesterday was quite the day.  Met with my lawyer and finished up my paperwork there, then came home and did Legos with Johnny.  He is on a big Lego kick and we have been assembling quite a few of them...he got like 10 kits for his birthday...I think we have 4 left.

I noticed my front right tire is worn way down...when hubby wrecked my car a few months ago I should have gotten an alignment because I think that is why it is wearing down so fast.  So I am going to make an appointment for some car maintenance this weekend, oil change, transmission flush, alignment, tire rotation and possibly get a new tire...YIKES I know that is going to cost me some money.  I am also a little shocked that I have not had to replace the brakes yet.  I bought the car 2 years ago and it had 22000 miles on it..it now has 70000 miles on it and I have never replaced the brakes....you would think they would start to squeak?

This weekend a few girlfriends and I are all going to the waterslides up here in Anthem I am super pumped to just lay around and gossip...plus I am getting my hair done on Saturday..yay...no moving or boxing just relaxing...I can use it!

Oh yay
Last week weigh In 168
This week weigh in 166
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total loss 2 lbs
Woot woot!

Johnnys Moms day card!

I had to share this one last card I got from Johnny.  It had me laughing and crying in the same setting.
I will tell you what it says because its hard to read

My mothers name is Jennifer, but I like to call her mommy.  She is 42 years old and she has been a mom for 102 years.  She is 55 feet tall and she wears a size 9 dress.  In my eyes, she is always beautiful, but I especially like it when she wears her wedding dress.
My mom keeps our house squeaky clean.  Her favorite chore is washing the dishes.  My mom is also a great chef.  The tastiest food she makes is mashed potatoes with gravy and chicken.  When my mom needs to relax she goes to bed and watches tv.  She leaves me lots of reminders to clean up my room and she always tells me "I love you" :) I love my mom because she looks pretty.

Its so funny to see it from a childs perspective!

I am still in shock that there is only a week and half left of school...boy the year flew by!  I bought our tickets today to go back to North Dakota to visit my cousins..decided to stay a week this year instead of just 4 days so we are pretty excited.  Its always nice to get away from here in July to go back and stay on the lake in ND.  Thats about it for yesterday..it was kind of a sad day for me..I seemed to cry a lot yesterday..hoping today will be better for me and trying not to look too far out in the future.  I just hate it when I listen to music anymore or even going for my walk and seeing happy people..for some reason everything just made me want to cry...but I got to live those feelings out and not let them get pushed down with food.  Your words of encouragement meant a lot to me guys.  I don't want to always hit you with depressing blogspots so I will always try to have something positive to say.

Blue Nails...

You know I keep saying to myself that God does not give me anything more than what I can handle.  I have had some really down days..Friday was one of them. But then I worked another plan, regrouped and feel a ton better today.
My step dad tore out the water soaked stump that the water heater was on and dryed it out this weekend removing the water heater.  Thank God for him!  I had an estimate and one company wanted $3000 to do what he did this weekend.  Ridiculous how easily you can get screwed!
Plus my girlfriends came over and helped me pack up the house and move my stuff/Johnnys to storage.  I left all the furniture until John and I decide how to divey it up but at least I got out all the photo albums, clothes, toys, dishes and pretty much anything else.  I also picked up all the garbage 10bags of it.  The house needs a good cleaning but he gets out of rehab tomorrow and is planning on going back to the house so there is no sense cleaning it..hopefully he will do that.  I still have hopes of selling the house and hopefully he does too.
Johnny got me perfume and blue fingernail polish...he said every girl should have blue fingernail polish.  I told him it will be great for my toe nails but he made me do my fingernails too...he was so cute!

I know not my favorite..and don't you just love my man hands...but it made him happy.
Which makes me happy!

Then Johnny fell at the playground off the monkey bars this weekend....poor guy
So a very eventful weekend!

I did see 166 on the scale this morning so it will be nice on Wednesday Weigh In...Stress is helping me get the last pounds off!

Taking it one day at a time

Its Friday...I am going to keep this short and sweet because yesterday was a day from hell.  Johnny has an ear infection..I took him to the doctor and the doctor also said he has swollen tonsils and congestion..Johnny is such a trooper he rarely complains..Love that kid.
Hubby (Ex) finally broke down and went to rehab yesterday.  I helped get him into a facility and he has agreed to stay there a week.  No I am not going back...rehab is just giving him another chance at life..hopefully he didn't lose his job or he is in a world of hurt.  Then I went to the house..yikes..the water heater had burst and he had turned off water to the house...it STUNK..no running water means he has been using all 3 toilets for a week and not flushing.  So his dad met me at the house and we turned on the water long enough to flush toilets and I took out all the trash I saw around the house and decided I would get all my stuff out this weekend and try to pick up the house so that I can put it on the market on Monday.  I called the warranty company and they should be sending someone out to the house hopefully today to assess if I need a new water heater...which I am sure I do.  So I will need to fork over the dough for that.  Yesterday had me exhausted but I feel a little better today with a plan on what I am going to do.  I just really want to get this house sold so that I am not maintaining this household and I can go get a rental for Johnny and I.  The sooner we start to get a routine in a new house the better for the both of us....but this is probably going to take a few months.
Hope you all have a fabulous weekend and Mothers Day!!!

Waxing..the good the bad the ugly

So I went and got waxed...my eyebrow and upper lip..I haven't done that in months..well the lip probably not in years...my upper lip has blonde hair on it and I don't like how "furry" it can get...well if I didn't break out..I have little zits all across my lip..I look like a leper...what is up with that?  And the lip hurt like hell!  The eyebrows I am used to so they were not bad and look so much better.
Mom and I decided to go get pedicures on Mothers day as we have not gotten one at all in probably 6 months..I used to get them monthly but again I am not one to splurge on myself too often.  I am looking forward to the pedicure...don't get me wrong..I do take care of my feet I just do it myself :)
I went back to work yesterday after being off all last week.  It was awesome to see my work buddies and they did a great job of cheering me up.  I was surprised how energized I felt during and after work and so much more peaceful yesterday...I thought routine was good for Johnny but it was also great for me to be back in the swing of things.
I read that Governor Christie got the lap band .and got it on my anniversary day(February 16).  It will be interesting to see how he does with this.
He needs to lose the weight for his health and I hope he succeeds.

Johnny pics of waterslides and birthday!

Well I sure had a busy weekend..First a recap of Johnnys birthday. It was HOT 102 to be precise...and I had an outdoor party planned..yikes! but the kids had a blast and a few times we got out the hose and sprinkled everyone!

Johnny loved his bouncy and we played games and gave out prizes...had about 15 kids so it was just right if you ask me.

This weekend was opening day at the waterslides up here at the park..Johnny has been waiting all year for this as he was finally tall enough to ride them...and ride them he did for 3 straight hours..till I told him we had to leave because I had burned the tops of my feet...OUCH!

I did go get a scale and its not exactly like my other scale

Last Weigh In 170
Sunday Weigh In 168
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loss of 2 lbs

I am down in the 160's which is great!  I think this Wednesdays weigh in will be more accurate with two weeks in a row on the same scale

Seperated

Just a quick note to say I moved out on Sunday and Johnny and I are living with my mom.  I don't have much info I want to divulge here as this is going to probably be very messy.  As soon as I am able to continue blogging I will.  I did notice I dropped into the 160's on the scale..but now my scale is back at the house and I don't have access to it yet....Hope to remedy this in another week.
I am reading up on your blogs when I have time but I am not able to keep up like I used to. I miss you all terribly and hope to be back at it shortly.  I have realized that I have a TON of friends who are hear to support me and the common thing they have all said  "What took you so long"  man..that makes me sad to hear it and glad to know that I am not making this stuff up in my head.