So I am very sorry I have been out of blog land....all I can say is that life got in the way and I just was not ready or capable of blogging.
My husband passed away on June 29...very sad. Johnny and I were coming home from the circus and we were suppose to pick him up and go out for Pizza and then they were going to the community center to hit the water slides. Well when I called him he had passed away that day. They are still not 100% sure what he died from...we are waiting for the autopsy report and that could take another couple of months. They are speculating that it was heat stroke, heat exhaustion, dehydration. There was nothing really out of the ordinary..except it was 119 degrees out and he was found collapsed in the garage working on our golf cart.
Nothing can really prepare you for it. We had our problems and I had even moved out but we were working on it. I will admit I had not given up on him and I had hopes that he would get his crap together.
So I was crushed.
Johnny was crushed.
And we are still working thru our grief. I have a feeling this is going to take quite some time.
Johnny and I moved back into the house this weekend before school started. We were ready to get back to a routine with our own stuff. It has been pretty good....but I will admit that I don't go in the garage and I have not driven the golf cart. I also closed his office door and haven't dealt with anything in his office or his side of the closet...but every other facet of the house is coming back to us and has been livened up with plant s flowers and picture of Johnny and his friends(had to take down some of the pictures..not all but some)
Diet front...not really doing much
I did just start getting fills again...I am at 3cc's so no restriction..if you follow my blog I am a weird one on fills and I have been taking it slow this time so as to not do the yo-yo of fill unfill, fill because of too much of a fill. I hope to get back close to my green zone soon...but don't anticipate it probably happening until November.
I leave you with a pic of Johnny and I from our trip just recently back to North Dakota