I am sorry did I steal your cookie?

OMG I am a hungry crazy girl right now...I think the problem is I had copious amounts of sugar....so my husbands grandparents celebrated there 70th wedding anniversary Sunday and my mom made her homemade carrot cake that is just to die for...well I had a small piece...and it was HEAVEN..so darn good.
Then what did I do..take my other half home(she cut it in half for me and saved the other half in tin foil)  I ate that yesterday....seriously if it is not nailed down I will eat it.  I was hungry all day yesterday..I tried to make good choices but I just was hungry...I had 2 cups of shelled edamame yesterday...2 cups...needless to say I am paying for it today as I putter around.  I tried to pack some good stuff today and I was shocked that I was down .5lbs this morning but probably would have been down more minus the cake!
I am thinking about calling my office and pleading with them to move my fill up a week...I mean really why must I wait 6 weeks after surgery...my friend who got her band same day as mine (same doc) is getting her fill this Saturday..why does she get it 10 days prior to me....I'm calling.
On a different note...my son has spring break the first week in April and I am not sure what to do, I want to do something fun...just wish I had other mom to play with...oh well I guess we can hit the zoo, childrens museum, movie, library, jump house and shopping....have a great Tuesday !

Will I make this work....

Was over at Chris's blog and she brought up a good point which got me thinking.  Everyone tells me how the band is just a tool and you have to work it to be successful...this scares me.
I have tried to set it up so that I am successful.  I attend my support groups, I try to exercise, I log my food and I follow the band rules....will I succeed?  I don't know. 
Its hard to even celebrate the weight loss I have had because I am not 100% sure I can keep it off.  I have been able to lose weight before in the past...that is  not the problem...keeping it off is. 
So I wonder at what weight loss will I realize that I know how to do this?  Crazy. 
I should celebrate the weight I have lost now but I don't and I think well maybe in a year if I am still down I will realize that I can do this because I have never kept my weight down for a whole year..it usually starts to creep back up after awhile. 
I have lost 100lbs multiple times and done so in a short period of time but then it starts to creep back on...why can't I truly believe in the band and me.  I am so darn scared that It won't work for me, or it will need to be removed or something will sabotage my success.  Its probably all a mechanism so that I don't get disappointed....

Getting organized.....

So wish I had the day off today..having a hard time getting into work.  I finally got my tax stuff ready for the tax guy and finished filing stuff in my office...feels so nice to be organized---whos OCD.
My housecleaner did a crappy job...oh well they didn't charge much...but broke my vacuum cleaner..guess I will be getting a new one...this time I want a cannister one...carpet on stairs is a b*tch to clean.
I still got to finish that scrapbook for the grandparents but I started it!
I packed a little more in my lunch today to make sure I don't get off work STARVING MAD!
Have I mentioned how I hate waiting 30min after I eat to drink-----I was such a drinking queen during meals...I used to think it helped fill me up(but why was I hungry so quickly after I ate---hmmm)
I don't have much here today......happy weekend guys!

Ten Things Thursday

1.  So I like to learn lessons the hard way...and apparently I am just stupid--lol.  Got hungry again and had to pick up johnny and go to grocery store.  I got a rotiserrie chicken at store..as soon as I got home I took 2 bites of chicken breast...bam got stuck...came back up all slimy...had to walk around a bit to get that feeling to go away.  I should have planned better.  I should have had a shake or protein bar with me in my purse for those moments but I didn't.  I got a new purse at charming charlies this weekend and forgot to put them in there. doh!~
2.  I did not go to zumba last night..felt like it was too soon..not even 3 weeks until today.  So we rescheduled for next thursday.  I did go walking though so that made feel good.
3.  Need new tennis shoes mine just are not cutting it.
4.  Waiting for housecleaner she is 2 1/2 hours late...maybe she is not coming?  I haven't felt like bending over and scrubbing toilet or shower since surgery so hubby set up a housecleaner which I was glad because the house is driving me nuts!
5.  Work is awesome..figured out some crazy new stuff in Biztalk(thats the language I code in) that I had to google to get it working but figured it out all on my own and should save the company some money so that made me feel good.  I just took on a new coding language at work, they sent me to training and there are no experts at work.  Me and this other guy are it.  But its marketable and I haven't done anything new in 12 years so its awesome to get out of my comfort zone.
6.  Still losing weight...yay!  I have been really trying to fill up on protein and it does keep me fuller longer.  I have not had a protein shake in a few days because I am managing to get it in thru chicken, tuna, beans.  My new favorite..wasa cracker with chicken/apples/onions/greek yogurt...very nummy.
7.  No reflux...that is so awesome I love not having heartburn and my nails are growing like crazy!  In fact I need to paint them they look shabby.
8.  Went to charming charlies this weekend LOVE THAT STore...spent some money and time on me and got a few bracelets and earring, purse...I could drop a wad in that place.
9.  Hubby is interviewing with a big company that is going well and its a full time job working from home so that is a bonus seeing how right now we barely see each other with his hours being different from mine.
10. I love looking at peoples food diaries and seeing what they eat...is that bad?  I get ideas from them to try new things...kind of eaves dropping no? 

Have a great Thursday

ONLY 100lbs to go..........

So I realized that I lost 2.5lbs since my weigh in last week and I am pretty stoked about that.  The doctor told me at my post op last week that I would probably not lose any more weight until my first fill which of course made me think....pshhh...whatever now I want to prove him wrong.  I have been diligently tracking my calories which makes me more aware of what I am putting in my mouth. I will say I seem to be more creative with what I can eat so that I don't get bored and make a bad choice...
I finally had to put on my 18's today because the 22's seemed to slide off or leave me with severe plumbers crack.  I am finally down to my pre-baby weight.  Can't wait to be in the 240's..<sigh> always want what is just out of reach.  To be honest...I can't wait until 230's my wedding weight....or is that my 190's onderland.....ughhhh I sometimes wonder if I will EVER be happy with my weight...I am always so critical of it.  I remember being 175 and still wishing I was thinner....what a whiner.
I read the hunger games all three books over the last two weeks they were great can't wait to see the movie...I need another book to read.  A friend told me about the Janet Evanovich books which I have started to read but not really excited about them.  I am all over the place in books.  I liked the Game of Throne books by Martin and Harry Potter and DaVinci Code ughh what to read next...any suggestions?

MyFitnessPal a great motivator....and having friends helps!

So I had a great weekend!  I went walking around Tempe Town Lake Saturday morning for 90 minutes...it felt great.  I went with some seasoned lap banders from my support group.  They go every weekend but usually I can't make it..so glad I did this weekend.  I was having a hard time figuring out if I was feeling hunger pains, port pains or gas pains.  So when I felt them I downed(sipped) some water for awhile and if they didn't go away I had a bit to eat..that seems to be working out well because actually sometimes I am thirsty and not hungry.
Took Johnny to the Lorax what a cute movie, he loved it and told me he wants to buy the dvd...thats pretty special to him...and it brought up lots of conversation about greed and the environment which he asked a ton of questions on.  Like MandaPanda I am not sure why the PG rating??
I continue to track my food in MFP and have noticed that msarah76 rocks!  That girl can exercise..and faithfully, it truly inspires me to be more active...I tend to forget to add exercise to MFP and I need to remember to do that. 
I noticed I dropped a 1/2lb this weekend wish it was more but I will take it.  I am also eating more so I can see its not going to drop as fast.  I made a date with another mom to meet at the gym Wednesday so I am excited about that.

BYOC

BYOC 3/2/2012

It's Bring Your Own Crazy Friday in Carebear Land! Thanks Drazil!

1. Since I talked about psychics this week - I'm curious....if you could see one for free and you could only ask one question - what would it be?

*not really a psychic fan but to play along I would ask if I ever change careers

2. What's your favorite ice cream flavor and topping?

* Oh pretty plain here...I don't like stuff in my ice cream.  Just chocolate or vanilla with chocolate sauce nuts and whipped cream..love the toppings

3. What's your preferred method of working out? DVDs, an external gym, gym inside your home, classes?

*Gym and taking classes..they mix it up for me and I really enjoy taking them

4. If you work outside the home or if you ever did or will in the future - do you think it's better/easier to work with men or woman? Who do you work mostly with now?

*Interesting.  I have worked with both but I would say women.  They are more organized, more structured and have more personal interaction and support.  Men in my field have a hard time reporting to a woman, taking orders from a woman, keeping things organized and on track, don't really pass out the atta boys much if at all.  They are sexists.  They tend to be more lazy.  They like to have good ole boys clubs that womens don't really break into fully.  Don't get me wrong I love men just have not been real impressed by many.  And the ego's OMG I am in IT and I am literally blown away by the egos in my field.  I have been in the IT industry for 20+ years

5. Repeat question. Summarize your week in real life and in blog land.

*Real life has been a challenge.  Trying to figure out my band and what all my aches and pains mean.  Am I truly hungry or is that gas, Did I eat to much or not enough.  Should I be drinking more and taking more supplements. Really hungry one day...food disgusts me the next...ughh

*blog land...love it and love all the bloggers and the support...favorite thing to get on and get updated